Editing

I have completely edited up to Chapter 12. I know I will still need to go and re-read it to make sure it all makes sense but as of right now it's looking good.
I'm thinking about posting a chapter on here to see what the take is on the story...what do you think?

12:00 am

I'm in the mood to write. Obviously...I have completed Chapter 10 edits and started on Chapter 11. I am thinking the novel will overall have 18 chapters but be close to 400pgs.
I'm excited to finish it.
I'm still debating on E-pub or stick with agents...I'll figure it out.
I hope to get it started and hopefully next year be able to only write...I have so many ideas already started...
Okay I'm going to go to bed or I won't want to wake up in the morning.

Religion

So recently I got into a facebook discussion with a family member about religion. We don't see eye to eye and that is fine--- but I do have a mind of my own now. Before- when I was a kid I would listen and agree- smile and nod. I didn't care back then. Now however I care. The last church I was at made me feel awful for everything wrong thing I did, like I was for sure going to hell for driving over the speed limit. But my views have changed. I learned from that experience and don't believe this is the case. We were born to make mistakes. Born to be different to not all think the same, or feel the same. So for me saying "sorry I disagree" wasn't meant to be disrespectful it just means "hey I think different than you." the greater being that made us, created my head different than yours. That's all.
But let me just throw this out there....
If Gays- Lesbians- are not meant to be...that they are planned to go straight to hell. Why would a greater being create someone only to condemn them? Yes! People are born that way. It is scientifically proven...some brains come out re-wired. They feel trapped in their own bodies- don't believe me? google it- take a psychology class. Its out there. Again if you don't agree- what about that little boy who enjoys wearing high heels? dressing in women's clothing? a little girl that feels comfortable as one of the guys? or just never feels comfortable with guys?- anyway...after you have gotten through that part.
If that boy or girl is born this way--- why would the greater being condemn them to the fiery pits right off the bat? -- I've heard that their goal in life is to learn to forget about it---so you want them to go against their grain? to not allow themselves to find happiness? that doesn't sound right. I don't think the creator would agree either.
I feel that the bible was written so long ago by many different people, and nowadays are so different from back then. Its hard to interpret it correctly. Also- The words written in that book are read by many different eyes and heard by different many ears---remember our minds are different.
So that Bright Blue shirt you say you have on---I see it as green... who is right??? How do you know for sure??? Which one of us is color-blind???
Let me know...

vampires

A thirst for blood so strong and controlling. The need to feed on the brain every day all day. Trying to stop once the fangs has slid into flesh. Sleeping. Burning. Dying. Waking up yearning for the red syrup. Finding the sun to be bothersome. Painful canines digging through the gums each time pumping veins are visible. Blemish free. An ability to run faster. It's a way to escape to feel like flying and being free without leaving the ground or having wings. Being alone. Leaving humans behind. A darkness growing from deep within. Anger and sadness lonliness and emptiness. That is all that is felt.
Are we real? Will you ever know the truth?
Probably not. But we will always be around...

I'm Married!!!!

So all the stress of the wedding is over, which is nice! But the actual day went by way too fast! It shoukd be a week long event after a year of planning! But it was all absolutely perfect! Soooo beautiful! And I'm sooo excited to be married and a wife!
The cruise was Amazing!!!! Soooo relaxing and to not have to worry about time or money was fantastic! I wish we were still there! It was the best Honeymoon ever!!! Thank you to my wonderful parents for the perfect wedding and to my spectacular in-laws for the bestest honeymoon!

4 Days!!!!

My wedding is here in 4 days!!!!!! I have never known stress until now...but it's worth it. Great stress to know I will become the wife of an amazin g man. Someone I never thought I would meet, and now I have and he wants me. He loves me for me, and that is amazing. With all my flaws and quirks and dorkiness and addiction to writing to the point that most of my time is spent on it and yet he loves me. I can't wait for the day to be here!!!!
I'll post pix later!!!!! :-)

i walked away...

I walked away. just turned and walked away. i should've said goodbye. i love you. i'm going to miss you. even thrown out some questions. why? was i not good enough? did you want more? i could've given more. i would've given more...for you.
instead i walked away. quickly slid into the drivers side of my car, slammed the door in your sad face without shedding a tear, and drove away.
you had been it. my only. my one. i thought my life had ended and begun with you, apparently i had been wrong.
after all of that it had been the smarter thing to do. after what i have learned about who'd you become, and what or who you initially ended up with- i had been right. i second guessed myself for years. wishing and dreaming that i would get to talk to you again, but i'm glad i didn't. i'm glad that you gave up on me and on us. you weren't mr. right. you were just the beginning. and i am okay with it. thankful now that all i did was walk away...